you know how sometimes you get so upset over one thing ? and then what's even worse , it seems like you'll really never get over it. you're like ' what the fuck , how could that happen , why did it happen ? ' after the denial stage , you move to the depressed state . you're not ready to think about the actual reason yet , you don't even know what you'll do for the rest of your life anymore because it just feels like you're living life without a leg , your writing arm , no liver & one half of your heart is gone .. you were hurting so bad . and it happened because of one person . after the depressed state, you start to wonder about the future .. you start to realize that the way you're living isn't healthy and that you need to get back up on your feet .. reality has hit you , and that's the way it's gonna be . your parents will get you anything but this , because you know that no amount of money will get him back for you , even if it did .. you wouldn't want him that way . after a couple of weeks .. everything starts to fall back into place , as usual .. you know your girls have your back , you know the guys are gonna be there still , and your marks have to go back up sometime .. so what do you do ? you have to try to block out all that shit in your heart , and you have to get back on track . every once in a while , people who don't know the news yet .. they ask you how you guys are doing . what' your reply ? " there's no us anymore. " and after people ask why , you start to get pissed . you know that the reason why there was no more ' us ' was stupid , and a total utter mistake . but it's okay .. nobody needs to know . everytime he tried to start a conversation , you feel like punching his head off .. but you know it isn't a good idea to show him that you're hurt , so you either ignore him or treat him no better than he treated you . it felt like a good idea at the time yes ? after you seriously get over him , no feelings are left .. you move on , you meet someone wonderful and amazing , and even though you thought there was no future for you two , you knew how it felt like to really like someone . and this time , you didn't have to put up with being called names , he didn't call you at 3AM , he never kept you up .. he told you to go to bed . he helped you with your homework and you actually started to do your homework .. you really liked him , and pain didn't have to come with happiness anymore , happiness was happiness and nothing less . obviously , occasionally when you see some things that remind you of the recent past , you start to think about it .. but nothing more . after a couple of weeks .. you start hearing things .. you're whatever with it . after a couple of weeks again , you really start hearing things that you know you prevented from happening to him .. you feel as if he deserved it , because you two are buddhist and you two strongly belive in karma . you don't hear anything again , after a couple of weeks .. what do you do ?
you're worried .
but at this point , you've been a total ass so that you totally blocked off communication with him .. there is no way you could talk to him , because you ruined it .. took ignoring him too far .
and now what do you do ?
nothing .
it isn't even your fault anymore , and it's totally stupid how this happened .
and now , the saying
" everything happens for a reason " is true .
because now ? we're exactly where we were when we haven't met yet .
exactly there .
we were never meant to be , we just happened .
and then , we fell ..
we had to fall someday , it's how it was meant to be .

you know how sometimes you get so upset over one thing ? and then what's even worse , it seems like you'll really never get over it. you're like ' what the fuck , how could that happen , why did it happen ? ' after the denial stage , you move to the depressed state . you're not ready to think about the actual reason yet , you don't even know what you'll do for the rest of your life anymore because it just feels like you're living life without a leg , your writing arm , no liver & one half of your heart is gone .. you were hurting so bad . and it happened because of one person . after the depressed state, you start to wonder about the future .. you start to realize that the way you're living isn't healthy and that you need to get back up on your feet .. reality has hit you , and that's the way it's gonna be . your parents will get you anything but this , because you know that no amount of money will get him back for you , even if it did .. you wouldn't want him that way . after a couple of weeks .. everything starts to fall back into place , as usual .. you know your girls have your back , you know the guys are gonna be there still , and your marks have to go back up sometime .. so what do you do ? you have to try to block out all that shit in your heart , and you have to get back on track . every once in a while , people who don't know the news yet .. they ask you how you guys are doing . what' your reply ? " there's no us anymore. " and after people ask why , you start to get pissed . you know that the reason why there was no more ' us ' was stupid , and a total utter mistake . but it's okay .. nobody needs to know . everytime he tried to start a conversation , you feel like punching his head off .. but you know it isn't a good idea to show him that you're hurt , so you either ignore him or treat him no better than he treated you . it felt like a good idea at the time yes ? after you seriously get over him , no feelings are left .. you move on , you meet someone wonderful and amazing , and even though you thought there was no future for you two , you knew how it felt like to really like someone . and this time , you didn't have to put up with being called names , he didn't call you at 3AM , he never kept you up .. he told you to go to bed . he helped you with your homework and you actually started to do your homework .. you really liked him , and pain didn't have to come with happiness anymore , happiness was happiness and nothing less . obviously , occasionally when you see some things that remind you of the recent past , you start to think about it .. but nothing more . after a couple of weeks .. you start hearing things .. you're whatever with it . after a couple of weeks again , you really start hearing things that you know you prevented from happening to him .. you feel as if he deserved it , because you two are buddhist and you two strongly belive in karma . you don't hear anything again , after a couple of weeks .. what do you do ?
you're worried .
but at this point , you've been a total ass so that you totally blocked off communication with him .. there is no way you could talk to him , because you ruined it .. took ignoring him too far .
and now what do you do ?
nothing .
it isn't even your fault anymore , and it's totally stupid how this happened .
and now , the saying
" everything happens for a reason " is true .
because now ? we're exactly where we were when we haven't met yet .
exactly there .
we were never meant to be , we just happened .
and then , we fell ..
we had to fall someday , it's how it was meant to be .

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