fuck , fuck .. fuck .
Thursday, May 14, 2009 4:51 PM

obviously , those were the three words that kept running through my mind today .. ' fuck , fuck & fuck . ' and you all know that i only keep saying fuck whenever i'm pissed off . honestly , i run into her all the time it isn't even funny anymore , it's such a damn piss off .. like , you either say hi :) or you just don't say anything to me at all , i don't mind walking past someone that i know of without acknowledging the fact that they're there , i do it all the time & i'm sure you do too . so don't act like you're fucking forced to say hi to me or else i'll like .. cut your head or something , because i rather you say hi to me and mean it . my mommy gave me a drive this morning and i was fucking glad even though i hate it when she gives me rides because she ends up making a 3 minute drive the longest 3 minutes of my life for the day ( before school ) but anyhow , i just hate it when people think they've got the world in their hands and they need to act like it .. honestly ? you don't need to look at me like that , i don't care what he's doing to you . if you guys had sex last night , if you guys made out last night , if he took you shopping and paid for everything you bought , whatever . it doesn't matter what he did , just stop fucking acting like i have it a lot worse than you because i'm telling you right now .. what i have is gonna stay this way , longer than yours will because i know his personality . when things get hard , he gives up . he doesn't have a single bone in his body that pushes him , telling him to put up with the shit and fight for it . he's spoiled and he expects everything to go right , or nothing goes right . i seriously don't need you giving me those looks , i don't fucking want you to say hi to me , i don't want you to look at me in the first place , i don't fucking mind walking just a little longer to get to school or to get home , as long as i don't see you at school , on the way home from school , to school .. i'm good like that . you ain't shit , and neither is he .
actually .. i'm not surprised if you two aren't virgins anymore . i hope you two get fucked over , because you two obviously have the shittiest personalities . hope you two make it to a year , a century and a decade .. you two exactly deserve each other . i'm in the happiest relationship right now , and you probably are too .. well , not for long . watch me , one of you two are gonna get bored of each other . but i ain't a bitch , i don't wish the worst for you two . i hope you two actually stay forever , because that way you two won't fuck around with anyone else's hearts anymore . your boyfriend's a slut and so are you .. he's ugly and so are you , he loves to start shit and so do you , he fails at school and life and so do you .. the more you think about it , you two were really meant for each other .

either ways , just remember ..
i had everything you had , and i still have it .. it's just with someone else , someone i actually love .
i hate compeition , i hate homewreckers and etc .. and i choose to ignore it and everything else because i know what i'm doing is wrong ( most of the times LOL , i don't always ignore it :) ) and trust , i doubt you'll ever go that far .
' there's always going to be another alaska in every relationship ' , and when you have one ..
you're fucked .