fuck where do i start ..
Monday, June 22, 2009 6:51 PM

fuck i bet you anything this blog entry is gonna be the LONGEEEEST ONE THERE. omg so much shit happened at this one stupid trip to wonderland it wasn't even funny. like at first on the bus there i had to sit beside the most annoyingest kid ever, and i know that isn't even a word but like still. and then after we went on top gun of flight deck whatever people call it now -_- .. and it was my first ride there right ? and i was nervous enough already holy fuck i'm just like WTF WTF AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH D: through the whole ride -_- like honestly i felt like throwing up. and then sanhave and weljaa were in front of us cause i was beside numa and all you hear is weljaa going like FML FML FML and sanhave going like AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH and i was like sanhave shu - AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH and yeah lots of screaming going on, i bet you anything china could've heard us at that rate. and after we got off i was just like ughhh i feel sick to like, max : . and then we just walked around a bit, saw people on rides. sanhave and numa went on psyclone and weljaa and i walked around right ? yah well guess who we saw rofl . krishan , danusan , nick.j , alan , chris & joseph L . jeeeebus -_- . and alan kept dragging me he was like oh which ride do you wanna go on ;D and i'm just like fuck .. none LOL . and after we did end up lining up for nightmares but i chickened out cause that's what i do best apparently. and somehow i got dragged to um .. mine buster ? fuck. i thought it was gonna be a soft ride beacuse it was made out of wood, and after it was our turn to go on nick.j's like btw it's gonna hurt because it's wood. and i'm just sitting there like HOLY SHIIIIIIIIT i can't believe i'm doing this ! and then when it started, all you see is weljaa like ducking and crying for her life ROFL and i'm just like screaming and every 5 seconds i'd stop and scream. after a while on the ride i'm just like that's it fuck you all i don't care i needa barf and i'ma barf now .. and then the ride drops. and at that point i went back to my five second screaming O_O. and then after we just started walking out righht . and then after alan dragged me to this other water ride .. don't know how it happened but yeh . and it was .. idk, white water canyon or whatever i don't even care about the name but all i know is that my hair got unstraightened, my shorts are STILL wet, my flats were soaked with water (fml) my make up was good at least though. and then it was fucking cold but i guess it was all good cause i had alan's hugeass sweater >_> until we saw her .. but yeh that's whatever again. and after me and weljaa checked in exactly at 12:30 .. we were the last ones there but whatever . and after we just walked around and chilled and everything, gave that hugeass sweater back .. and i fucked up a hotdog apparently that numa and i shared because the thing's like, a friggin' metre long . and i can't believe people can finish that thing T_T . oh shiiit and i got like three fucking bug bites , it's so disgusting like holy . i'ma wear leggings tmr if not jeans i'm not wearing shorts FOREEEEEEEEVER . so on the way back, sanhave and i had some fun on the bus .. after the bus came 2 hours late rofl -_- . but eh , we texted people on the same bus , diff bus & shits along those lines. and i texted my dad saying how i was sick and it was so nice of him cause when i came home i went to the kitchen first (because its like..eh, habit) and i saw all the crap from my bed on the table, and after i went back upstairs and all you see is my bed all comfy with like a water bottle and a bucket beside it. rofl i love my dad. but i still can't sleep yet =/ haha . anywaaaaays xD that's all i shall write for today .
ps , never sit beside me on a ride unless you're the girls that are used to me screaming like that .
pps , apparently i'm a homewrecker .. T_T . fml i feel so bad.
- love cee.

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he's a man, and even though men can be dog sometimes ..
they're still human .
for every ' i love you ' that you say to him, he'll never count them.
for every ' i hate you ' that you say to him, he'll always remember when & why .
' i love you ' brings him closer .
' i hate you ' brings him two steps back .
for every object that you throw at him, it makes his heart hurt.
for every kiss that you blow him, he smiles.
it doesn't matter what he did to you, why he did it.
one day, he's going to get impatient,
pack his shit up, and leave your ass behind.
no mistakes are worth hearing those three painful words.
no mistakes are worth having objects being thrown at.
when you're angry, learn to control yourself.
before he tells you goodbye.

doesn't matter how many times i'd get mad at you ever,
but trust ..
i've always gotta keep that in my mind .
doesn't matter why i get pissed ,
the smallest things add up
the big things just crash
but either ways, i know i don't hate you.
sometimes if i see you walking in front of me, maybe i feel like picking up a stone and chucking it at your head.
but i know i don't hate you, i know i love you.
and honestly guys, love or not.
i've regret so much shit i did
i mean, my ex has been assholey
for every ' i hate you ' and things that i've thrown at him
it's obviously just another step before he leaves.