so honestly, it's days like today that makes me wanna smile when i think about it :)
so let's start off from the morning !
in the morning, it was just me and sanhave. because lianne and weljaa weren't here in the morning right ? so i updated sanhave on EVERRRRRYTHING that happened. and then i told sanhave on how i hated _____ & how he doesn't learn his lessons and blah blah blah. and sanhave goes telling me he's nice and everything. but whatever maaaan i don't need crap like that in my life .. again. def. not for the two last school weeks. i need to be HAPPY :) but okay, moving on rofl. so besides that, then it aws first period. we had our raven presentations. alicia & i didn't go first period, and our plans to walk around the floor flopped because i was too chicken. and i was afraid that if we got called up and we weren't there, we'd be screwed. so that's not good lmao. anyways, then it was gym. and we had soccer baseball. and as usual, zoe and i hate the sport and think that whoever invented it, is definetly the gayest person alive. so me and zoe kept staying at the back LOL. yeah yo :) and it was funny because devon was in front of me, and i didn't realize it was devon, i thought it was leo. so when devon hit me by accident i was like leo ! and devon was all like LEO !? LEO !? WHERE DID YOU GET LEO FROM !? and i was like whooooops my bad :$ haha, anyways. and then we had arts for two periods and i finished my masterpiece. lots of hard work went into it ? definetly. sculptures are not my thing, even if they're fun. it took me a period to mix the damn paint, that's how you know i really tried ! and how did it turn out ? well, joseph thought it was a beaver. i put it on the table and i put my head on the table to level myself out with it. obviously, me being the total idiot i am .. i started talking to the scultpure, giving it a pep talk .. LOL . ' make up won't fix you .. i'm sorry i made you like thiss :( ' LMAO i love myself -_-. and joseph looked at it, and he was like celia is that a beaver ? and i was soooo pissed LOLOL i was like A BEAVER !?!??!!? and obvi i went screaming like shitlessly pissed for a couple of .. ten minutes haha. after that it was lunch, and i put my scultpure in my locker and thought it'd be nothing.
oh yo, i didn't even bring up the beginning of gym yet.
and i don't wanna get too depth of what happened.
but you know what man !?
i'm not gonna miss you
cause you're fucking stupid, ugly, fucked and all that jazz.
seriously yo, like okay i try to make peace with you and i know you want it too but i have a boyfriend so obvi i'm not gonna like you.
just because i wanted to work things out with you doesn't fucking mean i wanna get with you.
so like, that doesn't give you right to keep doing shit in my face.
you know what's gonna hurt me isn't whether who you go with to graduation, cause i don't even wanna go with you.
it isn't gonna hurt me whether or not you still like me or not.
it hurts me that i won't see you again, not for a long long time and possibly never again. and if i do, it'll be on rare occasions.
it hurts because i wanna be your friend, because i've known you for so long.
and what does this fucking fag do !?
THAT'S RIGHT, YOU TELL SOMEONE YOU'RE GONNA MISS THEM RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME.
that's not even it either, if you did that i'd be like okay whatever it shows you have a heart.
turn around and give me this smile after, right ?
oh bitch move.
honestly, i snapped so bad.
when me and sanhave were walking to lunch we saw him and i just walked by and flipped my hair and kept walking.
not even your usual lunch hi anymore.
all you care about is playing games with me.
well guess what, i'm not like that anymore.
i don't wanna play games with you, cause i'm done.
you can win, i don't fucking care.
what's winning a game worth if all i'm gaining is more and more pain ?
what're you, it doesn't matter how hurt you get man. all you care about is girls and their asses.
even if you respected me a lot more than you respect other girls, it doesn't make a difference.
i should honestly think about everything in the past and sometimes base my choices made on them, but it doesn't make a damn difference ..
so anyways back to my sculpture.
i thought that'd be the end of it right, it being in my locker so i was like oh i won't have to see it for a while :)) and then after i had to go get water from my locker so i went back to get it..and all you see is michelle going like BEAVER BEAVER ! i was like omg oh no she didn't :l . and i was reminded of my sculpture again. so after school i decided to do the right thing which was give the sculpture to it's intended owner.
he likes it, apparently.
well .. that's good :)
and then i also got to see the boyfriend today after like 4598046490583904892803 of not seeing him. i really missed him =(
but it's all good :)
even if he's a softer asshole :)
and i think i've gotta get around to my homework now.
so i'll write more tomorrow :)

so honestly, it's days like today that makes me wanna smile when i think about it :)
so let's start off from the morning !
in the morning, it was just me and sanhave. because lianne and weljaa weren't here in the morning right ? so i updated sanhave on EVERRRRRYTHING that happened. and then i told sanhave on how i hated _____ & how he doesn't learn his lessons and blah blah blah. and sanhave goes telling me he's nice and everything. but whatever maaaan i don't need crap like that in my life .. again. def. not for the two last school weeks. i need to be HAPPY :) but okay, moving on rofl. so besides that, then it aws first period. we had our raven presentations. alicia & i didn't go first period, and our plans to walk around the floor flopped because i was too chicken. and i was afraid that if we got called up and we weren't there, we'd be screwed. so that's not good lmao. anyways, then it was gym. and we had soccer baseball. and as usual, zoe and i hate the sport and think that whoever invented it, is definetly the gayest person alive. so me and zoe kept staying at the back LOL. yeah yo :) and it was funny because devon was in front of me, and i didn't realize it was devon, i thought it was leo. so when devon hit me by accident i was like leo ! and devon was all like LEO !? LEO !? WHERE DID YOU GET LEO FROM !? and i was like whooooops my bad :$ haha, anyways. and then we had arts for two periods and i finished my masterpiece. lots of hard work went into it ? definetly. sculptures are not my thing, even if they're fun. it took me a period to mix the damn paint, that's how you know i really tried ! and how did it turn out ? well, joseph thought it was a beaver. i put it on the table and i put my head on the table to level myself out with it. obviously, me being the total idiot i am .. i started talking to the scultpure, giving it a pep talk .. LOL . ' make up won't fix you .. i'm sorry i made you like thiss :( ' LMAO i love myself -_-. and joseph looked at it, and he was like celia is that a beaver ? and i was soooo pissed LOLOL i was like A BEAVER !?!??!!? and obvi i went screaming like shitlessly pissed for a couple of .. ten minutes haha. after that it was lunch, and i put my scultpure in my locker and thought it'd be nothing.
oh yo, i didn't even bring up the beginning of gym yet.
and i don't wanna get too depth of what happened.
but you know what man !?
i'm not gonna miss you
cause you're fucking stupid, ugly, fucked and all that jazz.
seriously yo, like okay i try to make peace with you and i know you want it too but i have a boyfriend so obvi i'm not gonna like you.
just because i wanted to work things out with you doesn't fucking mean i wanna get with you.
so like, that doesn't give you right to keep doing shit in my face.
you know what's gonna hurt me isn't whether who you go with to graduation, cause i don't even wanna go with you.
it isn't gonna hurt me whether or not you still like me or not.
it hurts me that i won't see you again, not for a long long time and possibly never again. and if i do, it'll be on rare occasions.
it hurts because i wanna be your friend, because i've known you for so long.
and what does this fucking fag do !?
THAT'S RIGHT, YOU TELL SOMEONE YOU'RE GONNA MISS THEM RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME.
that's not even it either, if you did that i'd be like okay whatever it shows you have a heart.
turn around and give me this smile after, right ?
oh bitch move.
honestly, i snapped so bad.
when me and sanhave were walking to lunch we saw him and i just walked by and flipped my hair and kept walking.
not even your usual lunch hi anymore.
all you care about is playing games with me.
well guess what, i'm not like that anymore.
i don't wanna play games with you, cause i'm done.
you can win, i don't fucking care.
what's winning a game worth if all i'm gaining is more and more pain ?
what're you, it doesn't matter how hurt you get man. all you care about is girls and their asses.
even if you respected me a lot more than you respect other girls, it doesn't make a difference.
i should honestly think about everything in the past and sometimes base my choices made on them, but it doesn't make a damn difference ..
so anyways back to my sculpture.
i thought that'd be the end of it right, it being in my locker so i was like oh i won't have to see it for a while :)) and then after i had to go get water from my locker so i went back to get it..and all you see is michelle going like BEAVER BEAVER ! i was like omg oh no she didn't :l . and i was reminded of my sculpture again. so after school i decided to do the right thing which was give the sculpture to it's intended owner.
he likes it, apparently.
well .. that's good :)
and then i also got to see the boyfriend today after like 4598046490583904892803 of not seeing him. i really missed him =(
but it's all good :)
even if he's a softer asshole :)
and i think i've gotta get around to my homework now.
so i'll write more tomorrow :)

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