i pretty much snapped.
Friday, August 14, 2009 1:33 AM

just sitting there, thinking about how much i miss you, and i can't wait to see you, and i want to hug you ..
and then,
someone talks to me ..
is that why you like to freakin' blow me off, reply to me after 5 minutes and barely reply at least like your usual three times a week ?
and then you call me :) which is sweet ! i see your number on the phone and i'm like :O maybe i'm wrong !
i pick up and realize you only call when you're dead tired, about to go to sleep.
i'd rather you go to sleep than talk to me without feeling like you have to talk to me.
it isn't exactly a duty to call every night, no book of dating says you HAVE to call every night, whether it's a matter of life or death. which is kinda what it sounds like you're doing.
i mean it's nice, but not because it's like freakin' illegal or something. if you want to, it's cute. if you have to, i'd rather you just go to bed and forget me.
it isn't illegal to be tired and talk to me, however it feels like it's illegal to talk to me after you're done and when you're tired cause you're all worn out. also because you probably gotta go in five minutes.
to be honest i miss you but i'd rather you just not call because it feels like you have to.
so why don't you call next time if you want to ?
oh, and only if you want to. because tonight i felt like hanging up. but if i did i dunno if you'd get your gooodnight's sleep so i just said peacefully please go to sleep.