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so caught up in the phase of impressing you ; i lost myself .
Friday, January 15, 2010 7:52 PM

mmm whatcha say ..
mm that you only meant well ?
well.. of course you did.
mmm whatcha say..
mmm .. that it's all for the best ?
of course it is.
mmm whatcha say..
that you only meant well ?
of course you did..
of course you did.

i felt so wrong, being with you .. because all i was doing was pleasing you. boy i still feel what i felt abck then because i know even though we aren't together no more ; i'm still not myself.
i'm like your perfect girlfriend, i'm exactly what you wished i was.
i snap at the littlest things i dislike, because you taught me i deserved nothing less than perfect.
i snap at people i don't like, i give people dirty looks, because you taught me i shouldn't have to be with people i dislike..
BUT. i should be fake, that's how i'd get around.
boy .. tell me right now ..
what did those guys use to say to you ?
" hey man, good job. "
" WHOAOAOAOAOAOAOAO YOU SCORED A GF !? YOU SCORED HER ! "
" ;) "
what did those girls used to say to you..
" your girlfriend is so real, "
" she's like.. naturally pretty . "
" she had perfect skin ! "
" she's not a slut ! "
i honestly, i was the only girl that went for you that wasn't all up in the ass.
you decided.. no my girlfriend has to live to their standards.
so i became one of ' them '
now anyone could call me fake, i look like a slut.. i wear too much make up.
but that's what you like, that's what you'l NEVER GET.
you know why ? you know why ?
because you let go of something that was real, and looked fake.
find another g` like me, tell them to get like me .
call me extra ? call me fake.. call me the WORST GIRLFRIEND YOU EVER HAD.
call me ugly ? say im a loser. you can say whatever i want.
you told me i was queen and that i am. i get what i want because i CAN.
don't call me names..
don't hate on me.
i lash out during lunch, in the middle of everyone
i'll talk extra louder, laugh extra louder.
you thought i was so miserable without you, you thought i'd beg on your feet for you back like i used to.
shit i have more dignity than that , and you know what i deserve ?
i don't even deserve the fucking king of england because i deserve even more than that.
i deserve the one i have right now..
because he respects me.
and the way he looks at me..
that's how you used to look at me.. when we first met..
after that, you got sick of me.
i got so caught up in the phase of impresing you ; i lost myself
i got so caught up in the phase of making you miss me ; i realized i missed you..
of course it's for the best..
what did she say..
what did they say to you..
what did they say..
what do people say about me..
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after all that i said ,
even if one day .. there was this next miracle that we started talking and you said truce ..
i'd put my hand up , " bitch didn't. :) "
and i'd walk away..
you know why ?
because that's what you made me like..